Post by abby on Feb 27, 2009 20:56:59 GMT -6
Sorry to break all the happiness here but I've been extremely upset over the past few days. I've tried to keep it in, but it just.. hurts. Ol' Abel, on every site something like this has happened. no matter how much I prove myself, I never feel like I have worth. I'm always outshined or shoves down into the dirt like I don't matter. Maybe I don't. I always try and impress my parents and friends, but that doesnt work either. It makes me want to walk away and give up on trying to feel like I deserve life.
Wooo yay for being emo. But here we go. Enigma and Ice ar elike sister's now.. Yuri and Ice, are too. Honestly, I'm not. Whenever I try to say something it's like.. air. I have to repeat myself, and evven then it doesn't work. And then noone wants to carry a conversation with me. o-o and no, i'm not over-exaggerating as some think when I say things.. this is how I truly feel. Stupid worthless and left out. Enigma definitely outshines me and pleases Ice, and even though I've done the coding, skins, advertising, and some boards for the site, it doesn't matter as long as I'm put down.
So there ya go. Half of it. I'm not even going to explain half of it because then you'll think I'm an ass. Mayybbee I am. But even then, I've decided to leave for the heck of it, because it's very painful for me. To have volunteered my own time to ice without her really asking, and then just to be put out like that. Soo, it's not final, but about 90%, I'd think...
abs </3
Wooo yay for being emo. But here we go. Enigma and Ice ar elike sister's now.. Yuri and Ice, are too. Honestly, I'm not. Whenever I try to say something it's like.. air. I have to repeat myself, and evven then it doesn't work. And then noone wants to carry a conversation with me. o-o and no, i'm not over-exaggerating as some think when I say things.. this is how I truly feel. Stupid worthless and left out. Enigma definitely outshines me and pleases Ice, and even though I've done the coding, skins, advertising, and some boards for the site, it doesn't matter as long as I'm put down.
So there ya go. Half of it. I'm not even going to explain half of it because then you'll think I'm an ass. Mayybbee I am. But even then, I've decided to leave for the heck of it, because it's very painful for me. To have volunteered my own time to ice without her really asking, and then just to be put out like that. Soo, it's not final, but about 90%, I'd think...
abs </3